Balance

At the beginning of my career, one of my mentors talked to me about balance.  She happened to be moving from a super high powered job to unemployment.  She claimed that she was going to find balance in her life.   I think she meant that she was going to do more than work, she was going to volunteer, get involved at church, spend time with her daughter, and garden.  It stayed with me.... balance....a new brass ring.  For the first time in over a decade, I've given up on balance.

 Balance is highly overrated.  Who needs it?  We can survive, thrive, and be incredibly happy without it.

My life is perfectly imbalanced.... look, three kids never balance out perfectly.  They pair up perfectly and always leave one person out.  Imbalanced as they happily play 2 and 1, never boring.  Up and down, there is never a balance. 

If balance is perfection and ease and symmetry, then I won't ever have it (and I finally don't want it).  I'm immersed in these kids all day, every day.  When my husband is home (and awake), I am immersed in him (alright, I'm immersed with him when he's at work and asleep too).  That's pretty much it, I don't have room for anything more.  I have fun now and again with a few close friends and my Junior League girls but my life is not balanced.

 My kids will get older and I will have room for more.  Kevin won't be working 7 days a week and I will have room for more.  My life is so full and out of balanced that I forget to worry about ME.  I forget to be frustrated.  I forget to feel sorry for myself (mostly).  I forget that I wanted balance.  

Instead of balance I have passion and that gets the job done.  I'm all in, absolutely no balance.